I am just another cigarette in your hand.

The cigarette which you just lighted. You obviously do not give a damn to the fact that you have set me on fire for your enjoyment. You are engrossed in your own thoughts. It does not matter to you that you are finishing me puff by puff. With every puff you take you consume a part of me yet I do not matter to you as if the sole purpose of my existence is to give pleasure to you without asking for any thing.

It does not occur to you that the burns you are giving me are causing me immense pain. You are engrossed in your own world. You will go on to consume me gradually yet my existence does not matter to you. You are holding me in your hand yet you are oblivious to my presence. You have me in front of your eyes, yet you do not see me. Gradually I have started turning into smoke and ash but it does not matter to you that you are killing me.

I am suffering in silence. I am burning and screaming in silence yet you remain unmoved. You do not hear my screams; you do not see my pain. You do not value me at all as perhaps you have many more like me at your disposal. Maybe I would command some respect if I was the last one you had. You would  still have finished me but then you would savour me, you would look at me, you would admire me. You would marvel at the joy I was bringing to your taste buds. You would have still finished me but then at least my existence would have mattered to you.

I know, at this time you will not care. Few more puffs and my entire existence would have turned into ash and smoke. You will just throw me on the ground, grind my lifeless body under your boots and bring out another one like me from your pocket.

I hope you did not have any more. I hope I was the last one your ever had but alas……

एहसान !!

चन्द चिट्ठियाँ और एक टूटा हुआ गुलदान रखा है !!

तेरे घर में अभी तलक मेरा कुछ सामान रखा है !!

सलामत रही ग़र ज़िन्दगी तो यक़ीनन उतार देंगे !

बहुत संभाल कर हमने तेरा एहसान रखा है!!

नश्तर !!

तेरा नाम सुनाया मज़े ले ले कर !
मुझे लोगों ने सताया मज़े ले ले कर !!

बातों ही बातों में तेरे नाम का नश्तर !
मुझे लोगों ने चुभाया मज़े ले ले कर !!

आशिक़ कहा मजनू कहा पागल भी कह दिया !
मुझे लोगों ने बुलाया मज़े ले ले कर !!

शायद जानते थे तैरना मुझको नहीं आता !
मुझे लोगों ने डुबाया मज़े ले ले कर !!

मालूम था उनको मैं फिर उठ न पाउँगा !
मुझे लोगों ने गिराया मज़े ले ले कर !!

वो तेरा शहर तेरी गली और तेरा घऱ !
मुझे लोगों ने दिखाया मज़े ले ले कर !!



I waited for you my entire life
I watched you grow in front of my eyes..
I watched you grow grain by grain
I watched you grow minute by minute..

I watched your beauty through the hourglass
I feared holding you in my arms
I feared holding you in my embrace
For I feared you would slip away…
I tried my best not to touch you
I tried my best not to feel you
but my temptation got better of me
I held you in my arms, It was so beautiful

For a moment or two it felt like heaven
But I suddenly realized what I had done
You were not to be touched, For it was a sin
It was too late for the mistake to be undone
You started slipping out of my hands
I tried with all my might but all in vain..
All I could do was cry helplessly
As you slipped away grain by grain..